Month: November 2025

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Job drops the “L” Word.

Reading Time: 4 minutes

“I made a covenant with my eyes not to look with lust at a young woman. For what has God above chosen for us? What is our inheritance from the Almighty on high? Isn’t it calamity for the wicked and misfortune for those who do evil? Doesn’t he see everything I do and every step I take?” ‭‭Job‬ ‭31‬:‭1‬-‭4‬ ‭NLT‬‬

In Job’s autobiographical style, he’s still sifting through the possibilities of where he has sinned, or where he has been unaware of such awful offenses against a holy God that it would warrant a personal plague upon his life. Have you ever felt cursed by God? Like every time you turn around, something is breaking, something is going terribly wrong? It feels difficult to just catch your breath or dig out of financial trouble when some new drama or debt comes along. Again, the Bible Project guys summarize it like this, Job 31 is “where Job makes a final defense of his integrity and righteousness.” He’s listing off his righteous responses, declaring his innocence.

But in this chapter we find Job touching a chromosomal nerve, specifically the “Y” kind. Job says he has made a holy contract with his own eyes. Job made a “berith,” a “barah” a contractural cutting, a promise backed by cutting the flesh, proving by blood. A contract, a promise is only as good as the bond, the word of the keeper.

Job metaphorically describes this promise his heart made with his own eyes. “I will not look…” I will not look at what Job? A virgin. A young woman. Well, that seems a little impossible, even impractical! For one, they are everywhere. Two, how would he know who is a young virgin and who isn’t? One specific note in 2 Samuel 13:18, describes Tamar, the daughter of King David, as wearing a “robe of many colors,” which was a garment typically worn by the king’s virgin daughters. “Now she was wearing a robe of many colors, for this is how the virgin daughters of the king dressed in earlier times,” Indicating that their clothing was not only a mark of virginity but also of royal lineage and privilege.

In the Hebrew, this verse does not have the word, “lust.” This was inserted to help the reader understand the meaning of “looking” at a “virgin,” and it wasn’t to imply someone checking out her swanky apparel choices. Job, declaring his innocence, his high regard for righteousness, sets the moral bar at its highest point- whether the young woman was modest with her wares or not – he wouldn’t gaze-n-gawk!

Just to be absolutely clear about what he’s advocating, Job uncomfortably digs deeper in verse 9 writing, “If my heart has been seduced by a woman, or if I have lusted for my neighbor’s wife…” He’s confessing both his methods and standards of moral purity by which he has lived his life. I have friends that put the Job 31:1 verse in obvious places to remind themselves of what it takes in a very un-modest society, to remind our male brain to make a contract with our own eyes. Looking may be one thing, but pausing to ponder is disrespectful and dangerous for all us “Y’s.” Job reminds us that God sees every glance that gazes longer than it should. It is out of love for God, love for our own wives and a true godly love for God creating women, that we should be on guard with the “L” word.

Years ago, my wife and I went to dinner with two other couples in Balboa Beach, California. It was a beautiful summer evening, so we went to an incredible spot called “little Corona Beach.” It’s quite a walk down to this secluded area that has a stunning view of the ocean. We had no idea there was a photoshoot happening just down the beach with the black rocks in the background. It only took a second to realize the model being photographed was completely naked! Right there on a public beach with the shooter just snapping away without shame. Believe me – we all looked because it’s just that shockingly unexpected. I instantly knew that more than a glance would mean trouble. My two friends gave a few more moments than I did. All six of us did a 180° and headed back up the cliff trail. As we said our goodbyes, our friend’s wives laid into their husbands. “Why did you keep staring?” they asked. Then, they just had to point out the fact that I turned instead of lingering. Boy, did I get the dude-glares then. I just knew better! I knew it was not a good choice for me to look even that little extra moment. My husband friends were so mad at me for making them look bad! I told them, “look, you were the dummies that knew better and didn’t do the right thing, did you want me to join you in the dog-house?” I didn’t even know Job’s meme for doing what is right at the time! Now I do. And, so do you!

Prayer

​Dad,
Job may have been proving his innocence or justifying his righteousness, but that one verse has been so helpful for me and many of my “Y” friends. Thank you, not only for your Word being a light and truth in my life, but also for being ways of protecting me from myself and proclivities of my own disordered desires.

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Rememberance Quiz

Reading Time: 3 minutes

“Think about this eighteenth day of December, the day when the foundation of the Lord’s Temple was laid. Think carefully. I am giving you a promise now while the seed is still in the barn. You have not yet harvested your grain, and your grapevines, fig trees, pomegranates, and olive trees have not yet produced their crops. But from this day onward I will bless you.” Haggai‬ ‭2‬:‭18‬-‭19‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I have spent about zero amount of time trying to understand Haggai. So little that I had to go to my favorite Bible summary guys – The Bible Project. Haggai’s book is a short read, but plays a critical role in understanding Israel’s response (and ours today) after coming out a massive 70 year timeout from God. The exiles returned to a devastated city, laid waste by the mighty Babylonian armies, raiders and opportunists. The small amount of people who stayed in Jerusalem must have lived in constant terror that their land, crops and homes would regularly, randomly be attacked. But the main attraction, the grand and glorious Solomon Temple had been stripped and leveled. The prophets that wrote about rebuilding Jerusalem, mainly focused on the temple, the wall, then the community.

Haggai points out that the people began by focusing on their own homes first. He words likely shifted their priorities correctly – to put God first. Build God’s house, then yours. However, in the process there was a different problem. After all they had been through, they were still playing religious games with God by practicing idolatry even while rebuilding the second temple. The generational conflict of memories was also noted. The older survivors of the captivity remembered the grand splendor of their beloved temple and mourned at the reduced size and quality of materials in the new temple. But those who were young, had no knowledge or experience with the original temple and they rejoiced at building this new one.

Haggai pointed out the glaring reality of the condition of the people’s hearts. Why would it matter? Why would it matter if funders, planners, building managers and laborers had clean hearts? It’s just another building project, isn’t it? No, it wasn’t. Haggai challenged the priests with a little Defilement Quiz. “If one of you is carrying some meat from a holy sacrifice in his robes and his robe happens to brush against some bread or stew, wine or olive oil, or any other kind of food, will it also become holy?’” The priests replied, “No.” Then Haggai asked, “If someone becomes ceremonially unclean by touching a dead person and then touches any of these foods, will the food be defiled?” And the priests answered, “Yes.” Ding-ding-ding, they were correct!

Haggai brings the object lesson/quiz home. If you are unclean, it makes everything you touch unclean. If your hearts aren’t right, you’re just building a dirty temple, a defiled house of God. His challenge was this. Our choices matter! The matters of the heart become important when doing or working with the things of God, especially the people of God. Obedience is always priority in and over any spiritual responsibilities. All actions, behaviors and practices should lead with humility, not arrogance, not grumbling, not comparison, and certainly not division. This makes Haggai’s book of extreme importance, both then and still today.

Prayer

​Dad,
I am reminded, challenged and convicted by these ancient words given to ancient people long ago. Too often I have done what you asked, working on the things of God, or pastoring the people of God, only to do it with a bad attitude, a grumbling rather than a grateful heart. Haggai’s words are still true today! You want more than just the physical effort, you want my heart to be right and completely, cleanly, invested in the work you have asked me to do. My motives may not have been mixed with idolatry, but they were certainly mixed with dirty discontentment. Forgive me and help me to move forward in obedience, in humility and a pure heart,

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Eating from a Bitter Spoon

Reading Time: 3 minutes

“And now my life seeps away. Depression haunts my days. At night my bones are filled with pain, which gnaws at me relentlessly. With a strong hand, God grabs my shirt. He grips me by the collar of my coat. He has thrown me into the mud. I’m nothing more than dust and ashes.” Job‬ ‭30‬:‭16‬-‭19‬ ‭NLT‬‬

In chapter 30, Job is not only at his wits end, he is at the finality of his situation and sees no light at the end of the tunnel, no end to his suffering. He now clearly believed that God was THE ONE who grabbed his shirt, chokingly twisting it and had thrown him to the ground. Sleep evades him at night and the hope of sunlight bearing better news turns into a nightmare of a haunting depression every day! He is utterly exhausted and has shooting pains in soul and body. He wonders where God is, fearing that God wants noting to do with him. God seems silent and evasive.

Job even continues to review his role in being judged and disciplined, although he could not perceive that he had done no wrong – it was all a test of will, of faith of grit and determination. The chapter begins with Job being humiliated by those with far less social or financial standing. Young men with so little maturity, they couldn’t even keep up with his own wrangling sheepdogs! Old men, past their prime, with no vigor to even help themselves. Job knows who they are and what they experienced in life: They are gaunt from poverty and hunger, they are driven from human society, nameless fools, and outcasts. These are the people now mocking him, deliberately and delightfully kicking him while he is down.

Yet, even though Job is innocent, he still had to reckon with his own actions towards those believed to be punished by God. In Job’s own words, he believes he saw their struggles and treated them fairly. “Surely no one would turn against the needy when they cry for help in their trouble. Did I not weep for those in trouble? Was I not deeply grieved for the needy?” Not to point out the obvious, but did he? Did he turn against the needy? Did he grieve?

If so, then how was he humiliated by their response to his own world falling apart? I am not saying God judged him for his attitude toward the outcast, but it seems obvious that he was oblivious until HE BECAME ONE.

Oh, how careful we must be when we cast assumptions and judgments on the poor, on the fringe who suffer bitterly throughout life. Some may say, “except for the grace of God, there go I.” Job experienced the low-end life IN and WITH God’s grace. I’m sure it changed him. I’m sure it adjusted his views on the haves and the have nots. Job 30 is a lesson on living life among the have nots! Instead of feasting with a silver spoon, Job learned to eat with a bitter spoon.

Prayer

​Dad,
In many ways I lived the life of misery, not by a lack of food or shelter, but of safety, love and peace. I understand family chaos, generational addictions and any sense of normalcy as a child living with a fractured blended family that reeked of alcoholism and violence. But, even then, I look back and see your hand of grace; watching, shielding, even resiliently building faith in me. I am thankful that I may have started as one of those outcasts, but I did not remain as one. My heart and life is now dedicated to brokering hope to the hopeless. It’s all because of You.

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Cave Prayers

Reading Time: 2 minutes

“Then I pray to you, O Lord. I say, “You are my place of refuge. You are all I really want in life. Hear my cry, for I am very low. Rescue me from my persecutors, for they are too strong for me. Bring me out of prison so I can thank you. The godly will crowd around me, for you are good to me.” Psalms‬ ‭142‬:‭5‬-‭7‬ ‭NLT‬‬

If anyone knows what it’s like to fall to the lowest depths of despair, it’s David in the Old Testament. From Giant Killer to traitor, he was hunted and running for his life. He spent years in hiding. This Psalm captures David’s prayer in the cave of Adullam. David was still pretty young, likely in his twenties, but he had assembled a small but powerful group of warriors, the Bible calls his mighty men. Oddly sad, Uriah the Hittite is recognized as one of those men. In an abrupt contrast of character, David later has Uriah murdered in an attempt to coverup his sexual assault on Bathsheba.

In these caves, David continues to write songs and poems of his experiences. Keep in mind that David had already been anointed by Samuel, chosen by God to be Israel’s second king. With that in mind, it’s hard to imagine the deep anguish as he tries to figure out how he ended up in that cave.

Yet, through the worst of that season David turns to God, lamenting, repenting, and confessing “you are all I really want in life!” Isn’t that how it is? When we are at our absolute lowest, we are emotionally and spiritually vulnerable, but very honest. These are the times we grow, not just in dependency on God, but also in a deep profound walk with God. Have you noticed that there are opportunities to change and mature, NOT when things are going well, but when everything seems to fall apart? Is this desperation a gift or a curse?

When I read the words David expressed to God, it makes me realize how trapped he must of felt. In an earlier verse he even writes, “my enemies have set traps for me.” He certainly could see no way out, no future, no path to God’s promise. But yet his hope was that God would bring him out of that circumstantial prison.

At some point, I believe that everyone goes through these dark places, blind to a possibility of being rescued. David held tightly to God and God’s mercy and goodness to make things right. If we could only see God in our own impossible situations, where darkness and voices of doom surround us. As a believer in Jesus, one who walks with God, that we could be confident in how good God is and have hope that He will free us from our own caves of Adullam.

Prayer

​Dad,
Hope seems easy when everything is going well. It seems impossible when going through our own dark cave experiences. David’s psalms are encouraging to see that he was in a very real and dangerous dilemma, but that he was able to think and even write about this deep sense of confidence and hope. You not only saw his circumstances, but would liberate and restore him from that cave. I have had a few of those dark despairing moments and fought the fatal thoughts that I would not make it out. But your comfort and peace were also so tangible in those times as well. Thank you for holding me in hope as I waited for your rescue.